From the daily art of managing polyamorous relationships

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On Polyamory, mental health and commitment.

The topic of mental health has always been a big topic in my life. I was about 13 years old when I first felt like there was a huge, heavy stone on my chest. I felt like I couldn’t breathe, couldn’t sleep. I felt slowed down, as if something was trying to pull me down. And there was nothing I could do about it, because there was no stone and no other visible object that could be perceived by others and it seemed obvious why I felt that way. 15 years later it is a sack on my chest or a very heavy bag. Filled with large and small stones, sometimes both. I understood only in the last years that I had already with 13 similar symptoms as I had them now and in the past 15 years, sometimes stronger times weaker.

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The opposite of intensity and why I long for it.

A few months ago a very good friend said to me: “I think I want less intensity in my life”. Since then I can’t stop thinking about it. Over and over again I land myself at the thought. What is the intensity all about? Why do I find less intensity so tempting? What is the opposite of intensity? And do I actually not want any more intensity or only less intensity? Or do I rather want something completely different? Continue reading

What my therapy taught me about polyamory.

1. Pushing things away that I don’t like about myself made them worse

So, facing my depression wasn’t an easy one. I’ve been in therapy for almost a year now and I’m coming to the point where I realize that I’ve been trying to push away my depression. Continue reading


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